I’m so relieved. I’ve not been that good but this week I started afresh, going for a walk on Monday and getting lots done around the house Monday and Tuesday. I’ve also been drinking heaps of water which I know is a big thing to aide weightloss but not always convenient to do. My scales this morning weighed me at quite a bit more but still less than last week. When I got to weight watchers I couldn’t believe it when they told me that since going in there – 2 weeks ago – I have lost 2kg. I also got my 5% bookmark, I just couldn’t keep the smile off my face!

Well I’m back off to weight watchers this week. I didn’t go last week as the Tuesday night meeting wasn’t on because of Melbourne Cup. I couldn’t do the Wednesday which is the case every second week so I decided to go it alone. Big mistake. I wasn’t excessively naughty but according to my scales I put on about 1/2kg. Now I did have my period right on that day but still, not sure if that makes a difference or not. I’ve been not so bad this week but did have a big lunch out on Friday so not expecting much.

I went to Knox on Saturday and ended up investing in myself, a bit of a splurge but I feel good so I don’t care! I went to the body shop for some moisturiser and ended up having a hand massage. I bought the body scrub that they used as it made such a difference. I have had excema since I was born and my skin always looks a bit flaky. I used it yesterday morning and my skin looks and feels so nice. With that in conjunction with my oil massage that I give myself in the mornings my skin looks fabulous darlink!

I also bought some exercise pants, the sort that go just below the knees and are like leggins. The tshirts that I bought don’t end up covering my bum so I’ve got a long tshirt like top on over the top as I don’t want to scare off the wildlife at birdslands. You know how you get an image in your head when you look at others wearing the same thing? Well clearly just dressing like them doesn’t make you look like them, especially at the start of the journey. They are bloody comfy though and I will look better in them if I don’t just wear them for looks! I’m off for a walk at 10am and looking forward to it too.

I’d like to give a little plug now if I may? After all it is my blog. My gorgeous friend Liesl is now a practicing Ayurvedic lifestyle consultant and she’s been an absolute rock throughout this year for me, telling me all the foods that work for my constitution, not being cross when I’ve completely ignored what she has said at times, not raised her eyebrows when showed my true food diary and given me countless indian head massages, marma point massages and abianga (I think that’s how it’s spelt) massages. She’s born for the role that she’s so passionate about. If anybody is interested in checking out their individual doshas (constitutions) to be at their very best or to go along for one of her divine massages her phone number is 0417 385520.

I’ll let you know how I go on Wednesday. Ciao!

Once again I’m starting my weight loss journey. The difference this time is that I’ve got a buddy to come with me to the Weight Watchers meetings. As I couldn’t attend a couple of meetings I asked if I could suspend membership temporarily and ended up doing it for a whole month. Well….. that gave me licence to eat like a pig for a month didn’t it? Will I ever learn!

During the time of suspension we had school holidays. I find school holidays challenging at the best of times but these holidays I found especially difficult. The housework had piled up around me, I felt unfit and unhealthy and my youngest was especially demanding. My husband is sailing for a week in the next school holidays in Perth, let’s not go there but suffice to say I’m not terribly impressed with that scenario. I came to the realisation that I have the whole term to prepare, prepare myself mentally and physically and sort my bloody house out finally. The only way to do that is to start feeling good about myself again.

I wont mention my friend’s name at this stage as I haven’t asked if I can add her to the blog. She however decided a similar thing over the holidays as far as feeling healthy so we decided to embark on this journey together. I went into the meeting today saying “I know that I’ve put on at least 2 kgs but I’m considering today to be the start of week 1.” Well, surprise, surprise, I had actually lost 0.3kg. What the? Just imagine how much I would have lost if I hadn’t binged on chocolate, icecream and chips besides all the other crap I’ve been stockpiling into my body to make the most of them! Funnily enough my friend is a similar weight and similar height so we laughed that it’s ‘game on bitch!’ Nothing like a good bit of healthy competition. I’m feeling pretty positive at the moment so let’s see how I go this time folks!

I had my weigh in tonight instead of tomorrow as I’ve got a meeting at school that I’d forgotten about in the morning. I was of course apprehensive weighing in at night but figured that as next week I have to weigh in at night too it’d make it more realistic when I weighed next time. Well ……….  I lost 1.5 kg! Soooo happy!

I’ve had a good week. A few big things but nothing major and no huge binges. I’ve had a couple of days when I’ve eaten into about 10 of my extra propoints, such as pizza night. Come to think of it we had a fish and chip night too where I ate battered fish. Pretty lucky that I had such a good loss then hey? I’ve had a few slow weeks but have deserved that, would have been happy with 0.5 anyway as I’m enjoying life and still losing a bit at a time.

I’ve had a couple of good 45 minute walks and I’ve really enjoyed them. In fact as I’ve been going with friends I’ve hardly noticed how quickly the time has gone. I feel better now too, I feel like I’ve lost weight this week. How exciting! 5.4kg so far! Feel much more motivated after that one. Might try and squeeze in another walk tomorrow.

I went back to Weight Watchers yesterday and lost 0.3kg. A loss is a loss right? I’m pretty happy with that too because once again I did a lot of socialising. I knew that I would be and I had what I wanted so I think a loss at all is pretty bloody good. The things I ate that don’t contribute to weight loss were – Apple crumble on Thursday night, apple crumble cake on Friday morning, full creamy milk in my porridge twice, one whole pizza on Friday night, two pieces of sticky apple bun on Saturday, one lemon tart with cream on Tuesday. I love this new system with Weight Watchers. I’ve clearly not been eating like I’m on a diet and still stayed within my points allowance and ate what I wanted.

The good things I did with this were – before having my apple crumble I had a chicken salad for tea, my pizza only had veggies on it, having a ham and salad roll before the sticky bun, having a cooked veggie breakfast before my lemon tart. So I can have my cake and eat it too! I am scaling it back this week and don’t have any social eating activities planned except for a morning tea after a walk on Tuesday. I don’t want to lose weight this slowly every week but it’s good to know that I can do both if that’s what’s happening in my life. I have been visiting friends too but have taken my lunch and fruit for snacks so I don’t feel like I’m missing out.

I had a marma point massage with the lovely Liesl – ayurvedic consultant – on Monday. This gives you lots of energy and flushes out all the bad toxins and I must admit I do feel good. I can’t wait til she starts practicing so that I can post her contact details on here, then others can enjoy the wonderful massages that I’ve been lucky to experience! Have a good week everybody! xxx

I’ve had a pretty shite week this week foodwise and moodwise so I’m glad it’s over and I can start afresh today. I’ve had a loss today at weight watchers but it’s a weird sort of one. Last week I weighed in at Tecoma at night and was told that I had lost 0.5kg. I figured that it wasn’t that good a number because I was weighing in at night so I should have had a better number this week. I then went on to make some dreadful food choices and though I kept within my food budget (just) didn’t think that I would lose anything this week. When I went to weigh in today the lady realised that I had in fact only lost 0.1kg last week as they had read my total from the week before wrongly. This week though I have lost 0.5kg. Technically in my mind (and in my overall weighloss) it’s like losing 0.1kg this week because it still adds up to 3.6kg in total so far. Anyway,  I didn’t think I would have lost anything so I’m still fairly happy with the result.

I did silly things with my food this week. I’ve gone for two long walks which I’ve been very happy with. After one walk my friend and I went for coffee and I had some banana bread. I figured that this would substitute for my lunch as it’s quite filling. What I didn’t know was that when I got home and looked up the propoints it took 17 of my 30 days points. On Sunday I gave the kids sausage rolls and Bridie didn’t eat one of hers so I ate it instead. Then I looked up the points which were 11. I should have looked it up beforehand, then I would’t have eaten it. Similarly I had the same issue with the curry pie and blueberry muffin I spoke about in my last post. I have factored these into my points and have still worked out under but I’ve felt crappy after them and there’s not been any nutrition in these choices at all. To lose the weight I have to have the balance of all the food groups, especially the veggies. That’s ok though, I’m feeling much more focussed this week, I didn’t put any weight on and I’ve started my exercising in earnest. I also feel good about the fact that I had another dentist appointment that I was petrified about and I was fine! Yay for me!

I must say it does help to have support around me. My lovely ayurvedic consultant – Liesl – sent me back a very supportive email when I sent her my very honest food diary with an apology included for not doing any of the things I had promised her. I’m going to copy and paste it on here so that you can see how supportive she is, making me feel ok about my stuff ups! How lovely is this? -

Well having a bit of an up and down week. I’d been pretty good with my food up until yesterday and even then didn’t do too badly. I ended up being pretty good for the weekend and began the week well. Tuesday I went to a friends house for the morning and ended up having a sandwich there, then went to another friends in the afternoon and sat being good while she and another friend scoffed my favourite dips in front of me! I was very proud of myself and my resolve. Mind you I knew I was weighing in that night so my willpower was huge.

I was a little disappointed at the weigh in and really have to stop that from happening. I lost 0.5kg which is a fantastic number, especially as it was a nightime weigh in. I’m finding it hard to do one night/one day alternating each week. The thing is that I can’t do every Wednesday and if I do an alternate Thursday morning it takes up half my day as it’s not close to home. Still, if it will keep me on track I think it’s what I have to do. I felt a bit deflated after the weigh in and as I had my oldest daughter Beth with me didn’t have the energy or the motivation to stay for the meeting. I’d be happy with that number further down the track but a loss is a loss and I must remember that. I also lost 5cm off my tummy which is pretty major for me as that’s my problem area. Once my clothes start to feel baggier I’ll feel good too. People have told me that I look good but 3.5kg isn’t a noticable difference yet. Still, getting there!

Yesterday I found difficult. I put my car in for a service so the car people dropped me at Knox for the day. I went to the movies so had a cappuccino and made the stupid mistake of chosing a blueberry muffin. I didn’t even enjoy it that much then found when I got home that it was 12 points out of my 30 points for the day. I then had a prawn sushi – just one. Because the car people ended up running until after school pickup my inlaws picked the kids up. I decided to get the rest of the family pies as a quick meal and went to a new bakery in Upwey that specialises in pies. The problem was that they had red curry pies so I decided that I would try one too. It was really nice but cost me 10 points and didn’t really satisfy me. I went to bed feeling stodgy as I hadn’t had any veggies or anything healthy at all for the day. Points wise it cut in to 6 of my weekly extras and nothing I’d eaten made me feel like it was worth it. To top it off I tried on some clothes in those mirrors that make you look huge. I should know by now that’s the easiest way to get me depressed, maybe after losing 10kg I’ll see a difference but not yet. Haven’t I learnt my lesson yet?

I need to stop being so hard on myself, it’s so difficult when it’s what has become ingrained in you isn’t it? I’ve done well so far, I have gotten way too heavy so it’s going to take time to get back down to a healthy weight. No quick fixes here. I’ll have my treat at art today then have a fairly healthy eating day and get back on track. Off to the dentist tomorrow again, something else to dread! Hopefully I’ll be in a better mood when I speak to you all again! Have a good weekend everybody!xx

It’s the weekend which I find difficult because I don’t have a routine. I’m also so busy during the week that I don’t have the time to get bored and just want to eat. I’ve had a few treats at the end of the week but feeling ok about it as I made some wise-ish food choices!

Thursday I did reading in the morning in my six year old Bridies class. I then went and finally put my quilt in to be quilted. It’s taken me 10 years to get to this stage and it’s a real mental achievement for me to finally finish it. The good thing about it is that I love it still and am planning on putting it away in my glory box for the new house. I’m feeling good this week mentally.

Thursday and Friday I didn’t do my morning routines as I slept right through to the alarm going off. I call this an achievement as I’m usually awake at about 5am tossing and turning, eventually just getting up. The fact that I slept so well I am embracing as it hopefully means my body is working well.

Thursday I also went for a walk with Minka the Wonderdog. It’s only a short walk but it’s hilly. I’m home in 20 minutes which is good as if I give myself too much I more than likely just wont do it. The plan is to do that one ’til I’m not out of breath at all, then I’ll expand on it. I’ve still got a way to go yet!

Friday – yesterday – was my art class. Tiff had made coconut macaroons which weren’t too bad in points. We then went out to lunch as I do a food review column for a local mag and was due a review. I’ve told the girls it’s my last lunch out for a while as we’ll have our new mortgage when building soon and I wont be able to afford my social life as much as I have been. I ended up chosing the lamb koftas with dip and turkish bread. The dips were healthy and it had a salad with it so I think it was a pretty good choice. I also had fruit crumble for dessert. Once again I thought it was the best choice out of some yummy alternatives. Liesl tried to talk me in to sharing her bakewell tart. I really fancied the crumble though and noted that she hadn’t offered to split that with me! I had to go with my heart so crumble it was. Everything was so yummy! I’d highly recommend it. For dinner I just had a little bit of scrambled egg and some baked beans. It took me back to childhood when we’d have the scrambled egg with beans on top on toast for dinner. Mmmmm it was just as nice as I remembered!

I’ve already been for my walk this morning, got up at 6.45 to do it. It’s lovely walking at that time of the morning, nobody else is around. Have a good weekend everybody! x

I’m very happy with my week so far. I’ve been good food wise since my big blowout last week and by Monday I was feeling much more positive having gotten past the weekend. Monday morning there was a morning tea thing for the mums at school for the junior years. I went with my Bridie who is six. We had to take games in and play it with our kids, then there was tea/coffee and cakes. I was such a good girl! There was fruit there so I had a coffee and stuck to the fruit. Monday afternoon I took Minka the Wonderdog for a walk too.

Tuesday morning I went to see my Ayurvedic practitioner Liesl. She was very pleased with how well I’ve been doing since she led me astray at the Thai Restaurant. She was however wanting me to try to eat the right foods to balance my doshas. When I was explaining how I had been feeling in regards to the sushi I had eaten that hadn’t satisfied me she told me that it wasn’t the best food for my dosha anyway. I should be eating more warming foods such as soups. I promised to do my best to incorporate the weight watchers way with ayurvedic principals. She then gave me the most amazing relaxation massage. There is a routine when she does it which has lots of benefits. It flushes the system out of all the toxins and I’ve been feeling fabulous ever since she did it. She’ll be practicing to the public by September so if anybody is interested message me and I’ll pass on her details. She really has a gift as it was wonderful. I took Minka for another walk when I got home.

Wednesday was weight watchers day. I lost another 1.4kg! Woohoo, that’s 3kg in total. I was rapt as I was so worried after the big dinner last week. I’ve been so proud of myself though, I made sure I tracked everything so as not to cheat myself and I got back on the healthy way of eating straight away. It just shows how much crap I used to eat. If I can lose 1.4kg after eating fried entrees, curry with roti, banana fritter and ice cream and pizza all in one week then I must have been eating incredibly bad before. That’s why I love the weight watchers way of eating, you can eat everything in moderation as long as you do the right thing most of the time. I think I might take Minka for another walk. It nearly killed me on Monday, was a bit better on Tuesday, let’s see how today is.

I got back on track on Friday but it’s been hard this week. I’ve recognised why which I’m pleased about as I’ll try to rectify it this week.

Firstly I haven’t been feeling as positive, I think because I used up all my extra points so early on. Last week I have nearly half of them left over so I was feeling on top of the world and knew that if I had extras here and there it wouldn’t matter so much. It wouldn’t have mattered if I had used them eventually but they were my safety blanket and just being there made me feel good about the fact that I hadn’t used them all up yet.

Secondly I am realising that I need to make wiser food choices. For example on Friday I had 2 sushi rolls which total 10 points. It’s a healthy choice and I didn’t go over my points but I was hungry afterwards. They are only small so quick to eat. Also, I could have had a ham and salad sandwich on wholegrain bread for about 7 or 8 points, therefore leaving me with a couple of extra points to play with. It would have taken me longer to eat and I would have felt full for longer. I haven’t had this ‘light bulb’ moment before so feel like I’ve learnt something this week. OK, a quick rundown of my diary for the week since Tuesday.

Wednesday –  started off well with weetbix after my morning routine. Tongue fine. At lunchtime I went to a thermomix demo but still pleased with intake, beetroot and apple salad, small cup of risotto and lemon custard. Dinner was my blowout night of fried thai entrees and curry, noodles and roti, followed by banana fritter and ice cream. Felt pretty good for most of the day.

Thursday – weetbix. Lunch was creamy vegetable soup and fried sourdough. Felt disappointed as I thought I had picked well as I was out to lunch. Dinner was pizza night so I had half margarita with vegetables. Probably would have felt better about this if the soup had been healthier. Had yoghurt and cappucino for snacks with fruit.  Felt quite sluggish all day and didn’t even do my routine this morning.

Friday I had my weetbix and did my routine. Went to art class where the lovely Tiff had made macaroons shaped like mushrooms! Very low in points, 1 each in fact.

Got some sushi on the way home. I made chicken burgers for dinner and had 2 yoghurts and some apples. Still feeling a bit sluggish.

Saturday I had porridge in the morning. Must remember to buy some splenda as porridge would be yuck without sugar. Went to inlaws for lunch so had ham and salad roll and zucchini soup. Had a weight watchers peppered beef meal for dinner. I also ate a small piece of tea cake. Still feeling a bit out of sorts.

Sunday I had bacon and eggs for breakfast. Hubby didn’t give me as much bacon this time – 4 pieces! so told him next week 2 is all that I need. He also forgot about the bread and gave me white.  I felt like I had started the day not too well. We then had McDonalds for lunch as we were signing the contracts for our new pool for the house we are building. This took longer than expected and as the kids were so good we relented. I wasn’t having anything but ended up having a seared chicken wrap. This was 9 points and quite filling so happy with that choice. I ended the day with another weight watchers meal. I had a ww chocolate mousse for dessert with strawberries and bananas which at 1 point was terrific.

Feeling a bit more positive today. I did my breathing this morning. I have something on each morning this week but most days am finished by lunchtime. Therefore this is the week when I start incorporating exercise. It also means I can drink more water as I’ll be near toilets! Off to Liesl’s tomorrow for a full body massage and to run through my fortnight with her (She’s my avurvedic consultant.) Then weigh in on Wednesday. I’ll be glad to start afresh this week.